Consonants and Vowels...

I am sitting in my new home, relaxing.  I am in my magick room, with my pug, chilling on the couch, and feeling just great.  Life is good for the moment.

I can breathe.  Work has been so crazy, life has been a whirlwind... I am slowing myself down a bit to enjoy.  Walking at the park.... It's all good.

Every time I hear this song, I choke up and cry.  Just beautiful


I am a lone wolf
a beauty and a beast
both hunter and hunted
soft tounge and sharp teeth

I´m toned from my travels
yet raw from this road
as I drink from storm puddles
and the stories I´m told

Help me figure this out
help me figure you in
you´re a shadow to me
that I echo when I sing

Help me figure this out
help me figure you in
To this simple little melody

I have seen angels
they were sleeping in gutters
they were standing in bank lines
they were jumping from towers
they were calling like seagulls
but nobody heard
such a beautiful message
from such a common bird

We want freedom for ourselves
but we can´t give it to each other
We want peace between nations
yet we battle with our lovers

we´re blinded by billboards
and trying to get ahead
choking on ambition
and the words left unsaid

I am a lone wolf
a beauty and a beast
both hunter and hunted
soft tounge and sharp teeth

I´m toned from my travels
yet raw from this road
as I drink from storm puddles
and the stories I´m told

Help me figure this out
help me figure you in

you´re a shadow to me
that I echo when I sing

help me figure this out
help me figure you in

How I wish you would not enter my mind waxing and waning ...

I have thought of nothing else the last few days...


I wonder if you are okay...

Deity by wendy rule

when the moon is lit, on her eastern side and im slowly im centering,centering. when my blood is bold is bold with a waining tide and i fall and im willingly entering night, the dark the moonlight hallow its here, i found a voice to follow.
i am the maiden, i am the mother, im the crone . i am the sea i am the sky i am the blood i am the moon. never alone, never alone. when the moon is lit on her western side and shes slowly brightening,brightening. when the earth is full on a waxing tide and i breathe with its ripening sea reflected in the water the old moon held by her daughter. i am the maiden i am the mother i am the crone i am the sea i am the sky i am the blood i am the moon. never alone, never alone. (piano and guituar)... i am the maiden i am the mother i am the crone i am the sea i am the sky i am the blood i am the moon (repated). never alone, never alone.

I have been in a funk for about a month or so now.  Just in a crappy mood, hard to cheer up, hard to impress.  Every thing I do seems to take an enormous amount of effort.  I am tired...

Work is going well.  Still plugging away, but even frustrated there... Home is a mess.  I am preparing to move and both homes are in disarray right now.  I have no space to really call mine just yet and it is eating at me.  In a few weeks that will be better.  For now, I suffer. :)

The moon has been beautiful the past few nights, I sat outside late last night just soaking it up...Normally, when the moon is full I feel at my best but this month I just feel restless, unsettled.  

Like a fever lying in wait
undulating to the sound of time
the dark woman of fate
singing in a quiet ryhme

Time after Time

Time after Time

Heart ripped out and bleeding
pulsating and quivering,
grabbing onto mere moments
that might restore my breathing

Stealing

Reeling

Feeling....                                  Nothing.

Wow.... The last 2 weeks have been a blur.  Holiday bliss, buying xmas gifts, baking, etc... And then in the middle of it all, I got a promotion at work and am now doing some regional corporate level education as well as managing my own building... I got to fly out to NY last week and spend some time there.. First time on a plane by myself.  I did good though.  I was really scared, but now that I have done it, I feel liberated! :)