Consonants and Vowels...

Like a fever lying in wait
undulating to the sound of time
the dark woman of fate
singing in a quiet ryhme

Time after Time

Time after Time

Heart ripped out and bleeding
pulsating and quivering,
grabbing onto mere moments
that might restore my breathing

Stealing

Reeling

Feeling....                                  Nothing.

Wow.... The last 2 weeks have been a blur.  Holiday bliss, buying xmas gifts, baking, etc... And then in the middle of it all, I got a promotion at work and am now doing some regional corporate level education as well as managing my own building... I got to fly out to NY last week and spend some time there.. First time on a plane by myself.  I did good though.  I was really scared, but now that I have done it, I feel liberated! :)

Boy oh Boy...

No sleep last night.  Full Moon tomorrow... Which means even less sleep tonight.

It is so weird.  Last night, my skin was ON FIRE.  My husband brushed by me and touched my arm.  He thought I had a fever.  This happens every full moon.  My skin gets hot, I don't sleep, and I get REALLY hungry, especially for red meat...

Yep- Lycanthrope... :)


Man, I want a steak for dinner tonight!!!!!

Work is crazy.  Like uber crazy.  I am trying to remain calm. 

Sitting here crunching schedules, budgets, and regulations... and then I hear it...

Prince- Let's Go Crazy

That song always makes me laugh....

When I said I was thinking about being with my friend "Michele"... I wasn't seriously contemplating a relationship with her.  Just wanted to make that note.  We joke around alot.  But I don't know that I am built that way... :)

The last few months in my marriage have been really rough to say the least.  Hell, even the last several years... But worse lately.

My friend Michele and I have grown very close and I am able to count on her for about anything. 

We have these "date nights" every now and again.  It drives my husband crazy, because I go out without him.  We always have so much fun.  We take turns paying kinda like a real date.  We have gone to dinner, for walks, horseback riding, to wineries... All of the things I can't get my husband to do. :)

Tonight, we do dinner and  a movie.  The new Twilight movie followed by din din...

My husband is grouchy about it which will make the day long.  He is very controlling and does not want me to have fun, I don't think... Anyhoo.... He is jealous of Michele and I as well.  Her and I always laugh when we are together and have so much fun.  Plus Michele is bisexual and he has been convinced she is going to make a move and I will become gay too... Boy, that would put a dent in his ego...lol.  It's not like I haven't thought about it.  She's adorable, sweet, and is financially responsible, works hard, owns her own home, and damn, she knows me better than I know me sometimes.  We have this link and she usually knows when I am in trouble or sad, etc.  She's my best friend. 

I am glad to have her in my life.

I had a great dream last night.  I dreamt that I was sleeping peacefully, which I actually did for the first time in who knows how long last night.  I dreamt that I was dreaming... Isnt that a weird one?  But, in my dreams dream, I was in an open meadow with the sun shining on me.  I was sitting in the tall grass which didn't scratch or tickle, I remember telling the people there how soft the grass was.  The sun was huge and yellow and bright, but I could look right into it.  As I turned to my right, my friend Michele kissed my cheek and told me to just enjoy myself, have fun, and be at peace.  It was like I think an acid trip would be.  Peace signs started floating around my head and It was beautiful, like butterflies. 

Later I dreamt that I rolled over in my bed and a feeling of dread came over me as I tried not to stir the sleeping grouch beside me.  I rolled over quietly only to be tickle jumped by someone suprising.  We laughed until I fell back asleep.  I awoke today feeling awesome and refreshed.